This week I’ve been inspired to tackle something very personal and important to me.
I have always struggled with my weight and, as a result, I have spent much of my life hating myself. Self-loathing has been a constant companion.
Now I ask myself the question: Why do I feel such shame about being fat? Why have I never felt comfortable in my own skin? Why have I allowed my attitude to my size to limit my life choices?
I know that it’s not just me that feels like this.
There are so many of us who hide ourselves away, make self-deprecating remarks about our extra pounds (before someone else does) and miss out on so much of what life has to offer because we believe that being fat makes us unworthy.
This week, I heard about Miriams Big Fat Adventure. A two-part BBC documentary airing next Monday and Tuesday that will follow 78-year-old actress Miriam Margolyes as she embarks on a journey to work out why the nation is getting ever fatter.
It has inspired me to challenge myself to make a change. I’m planning on doing some serious self-exploration, using the programme as an aid, and hoping it will lead to something big.
I’ve always found writing helps to explore my emotions so I’ll be using my blog as a way to make sense of it all. I would really love to hear from you if you struggle with this too and would like to invite you to explore these issues together with me.
Will you join me?
If this resonates with you, subscribe to my blog here and we’ll take the leap together in the next couple of days.
Yesterday, I talked about these issues (LIVE!!!) on BBC Radio Surrey on the Allison Fearns afternoon show. If you’d like to listen, hop on over to this blog post.